Sunday Confessions: 3-24-24

"Last night I ate a Crunch Wrap Supreme with ground beef. I’m a vegetarian."

On Saturday night, I used my new grill. My father purchased it for me when he was in town last weekend, and I found myself wanting to prove I could use it to feed a group.

While all the food was eaten in fairly standard fashion, I found myself glad to simply not see anything raw on table in front of us.

And I have to admit: I was more relieved than I thought I’d be when it all went fine. You’re all invited next time.

Now for this week’s admissions.

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I wish I was happier.

I took over ownership of an ice cream shop this year and everyday I feel like the biggest fraud because I have no idea what I’m doing.

I don’t want to be friends with my childhood friend of 20+ years anymore and I don’t know how to tell her. I’m married with kids and she is single. Different phases of life and she is clingy and immature.

I‘m training for a marathon and my partner thinks it’s “a fun little hobby” and spontaneously decides to join me on my long runs, slowing me down, distracting me, and then needing to stop because it’s “too much” so I have to bring him home and continue, it’s pissing me off.

I make six figures and I am garbage with my finances. I would start budgeting but I am terrified to confront my casual spending habits and would simply love for my industry to stop underpaying and for me to get the raise I deserve.

Last night I ate a Crunch Wrap Supreme with ground beef. I’m a vegetarian.

My wife wants another baby but I don’t so I’m faking.

I've had a "work husband" for four years. It's been intense bc we have a strong connection and attraction to each other. Sometimes I have a moral conflict about the situation but also can't imagine not having him in my life. We're both married.

Finally worked up the courage to go ask my crush for their number after literally weeks of cold feet.

I’ve been sending flirty texts with the CEO of the company that fired me last June. We also met for a run.

I’m dreading the next weeks. I meet my new boss more formally this week and the next few weeks are just too busy.

I’m just a silly little girl in love who wanted to catch the bouquet last night and some bitch who’s already engaged caught it.

No one other than my husband knows that I’ve been working on inventory and designs for an apparel company for almost 2 years now and I’m absolutely terrified to launch it for fear of failure. What if it completely bombs? What if no one likes the designs? And other days I’m over confident and afraid of what if it does really well and I can’t handle it? Literally all I have left to do is launch the website but I’m frozen in fear and find excuses to push out a launch date. so fucking ridiculous.

Resigned and told my boss his excuse of being a poor leader (tight budget) was a cop out but still dreaming of allll the other things he’s terrible at that I didn’t tell him.

Hooked up with my old boss who’s 14 years older than I am this past weekend. Great time and will be doing it again.

I am feeling so isolated from my best friends. It’s breaking my heart and has me missing bad friendships and relationships just because they were someone to talk to.

The DMV messed up my vehicle registration during covid and were not avalibe for contact. I've been paying the fees of a 10 + year old vehicle, not a 4 year. Saving several hundred dollars every year.

I’m so checked out at work. I spend 1/2 the day applying for jobs.

I think I'm in love with my best friends crush and he likes me more than he likes her.

Followed through and went on my first ever bumble date which led to drinks, dinner and really good sex.

If he doesn’t make me his wife soon, then the babies will just come.

I think that Harry Potter sucks.

He takes me on the most romantic dates but won’t kiss me. Won’t sleep with me. Won’t make a move. I’m content just letting him be a gentleman, but I’d also like to take his clothes off.

I hung out with my bestie for the first time in a few weeks and I no longer care for her energy, attitude and self absorbed-ness.

I told my boss I was absolutely not thinking about leaving but now I’m planning to quit. I felt bad lying to her but had to protect my interests.

I remove friends from seeing my location as a “good riddance” gesture of what once was a friendship.

Muted a friend on Instagram because she is getting incredibly annoying. Now when she asks if I've seen her stories I just tell her I'm not really checking social media much anymore... despite posting to my story all weekend.

I’m going to The Masters and terrified of looking like a boring dad.

I know it’s silly and social media is a dumb metric for self worth, but my Instagram gets far less engagement now that I’m divorced and it makes me think people only liked me when I was married. And maybe my ex turned everyone against me. Or maybe just nobody likes me.

I cannot stand when my husband talks to me about work stuff. I love him, but I simply could not give a single fuck about anything related to his job.

A woman at work hates me for some reason and I have made it my personal vendetta to be a better person than she is in every way possible. Sometimes pettiness is the perfect motivator.

I want to quit my job, get rid of my apartment, shove my stuff into storage, and use my savings to travel for three months in Europe. Is it a quarter life crisis or am I that miserable?

To my ex: your fiancé is ugly af.

My close friend and I recently moved to the same city. We are separately apartment hunting, she’s living in a temporary corporate apartment and I’m living with my parents. I found out her 60 year old boyfriend is going to be contributing to her monthly rental costs. Im not jealous about her older boyfriend but I’m incredibly jealous she’s going to have a drastically nicer place. Makes me feel like a loser in comparison.

I have nearly 10k in credit card debt and I don’t think I will ever be able to pay it off the way things are going.

I haven’t believed in god for many years, but I love going to church with my parents when I visit my hometown because I like the attention I get.

Met up with a guy I met online for the first time at church. We’re both Catholic, and Saturday night mass seemed safe. We grabbed dinner after, and hit it off and decided to grab some drinks, which turned into hooking up at his apartment. So this morning he drove me back to my car in the church parking lot…that was full of all the Sunday morning church going families.

I accidentally put a shirt through the dryer my wife said can’t go through the dryer… she hasn’t said anything yet and I don’t plan to either.

Went out on a dinner date, I was the only one talking, left to meet a situationship and came back home super high and with a raging migraine. Woke up to kind messages from the dinner date wondering when we are meeting next. We probably won’t.

Everyone have a great Monday. Here’s a chaser, something I randomly started my morning with today.

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